Self Esteem & Art & Why Am I Amazed?

So today I thought I would write about myself…oh wait…I do that every time! Seriously though, this time I want to bare my soul and talk about self esteem. Do you struggle with that too?

All my life, as far back as I can remember I have wanted to create things. When I was 8 or 9, I wanted a doll house so badly that I made one out of cardboard boxes. I made little furniture out of things I found around the house. I made curtains and rugs out of scrap fabric from my mom’s sewing basket. When I got older, I learned to sew my own clothes. As an art major in college, my emphasis was on fabrics and weaving. Later on in my life I turned to quilting…that was fun as well!

I love the fiber arts, but what I really wanted to do was to paint! I took classes, more classes and I even actually practiced using different mediums and techniques. Painting did not “gel” with me and that realization made me feel like I just wasn’t good enough. Was I not “gifted” enough to be a “real” artist? From time to time I kept trying though and I had people say to me “You are a “real” artist, just claim it” they said! That was easier said than done in my mind!

So that brings me to today. During the quarantine I found a medium that worked so incredibly well for me. I took to it like a duck to water! Alcohol ink flows freely and creates beauty as I work with it. I look at this as a gift from God. I can look back now and see how He has created me to be the person I am today, not the one society or parents or college professors wanted, but who God crafted! With that knowledge, I can relax and create art that is pleasing to myself and others. I like to think that God is pleased as well!

I still trip over myself and my own insecurities all the time though. You probably do too! Remember this dear friend…God created You & I as his beautiful masterpieces…one of a kind! Enjoy who God created you to be and embrace His gifts! He is so good!

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God

Ephesians 2:10

You are God’s masterpiece, rejoice in that this new year!


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