This post has been swirling around in my mind for weeks. My emotions are all over the map these days because it is time to move again. Sigh…..
It’s been a short 5 years since we moved to Central Texas to plant a church. I’ve written a lot about being the wife of a church planter and what a challenge it can be. I’ve also written about how God amazes me when I’m least expecting it! So today, that is what this post is about. In the turmoil of my exposed emotions I can clearly see His hand in this and on me. Is it still hard? Oh. My. Yes!
The calling for a new church plant in Waco, TX came about 8 months ago. A new opportunity to reach more people for Jesus! How exciting! Here’s what I said to my husband…”Well, it’s only an hour away. We won’t have to move. You can do your job there and I can keep my church and friends here!” (true story) Friends, I even announced that publicly at church one day. “We are not moving!”
I can just hear God chuckling up there, can’t you? That lasted about a week and I had to eat my words!
So here is the part where God steps in to CONTINUE (because this is an ongoing process) to mold me and assure me that HE’S GOT THIS! I don’t know about you, but I always tend to think the whole world revolves around me.
Me: “Who’s going to do all the things I do at church when I am gone?”
God: “No Worries, Sara! I’ve got this!”
Me: “Are you sure?
God: “Yes, Trust ME!”
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding.”Proverbs 3:5 (ESV)
I am happy to say that I am continuing to trust Him even more! As I surrender to Him, I see HIS work more clearly every day. It is definitely an on going process that I have to work on minute by minute. I am amazed to see HIM working all things out (in spite of me!)
Now this is where the emotions kick in and life gets HARD. My personal favorite thing about serving at church is CARING ABOUT PEOPLE! My heart breaks for all of our “people” who are going through so much! Leaving all these precious people is about to rip my heart out….
One sweet lady said to me “Sara, didn’t you go through this when you left your previous church to come here?” Yes, I did…and then she said “Well, you survived!” Yes, I did…and now I look back and say “Why Am I Amazed?” Watching God build His church here in Central Texas, sending me people to care about and show His love to. An added bonus this week…HE revealed to me this week how my life has touched so many…and there are many more people out there to care for at our new church! “Why Am I Amazed?”
One instance in particular has had me in knots. There is a young family in our church with a huge burden to bear. All I can do is pray for them, and I do…alot! Over and over again, I ask what I can do for them, how can I help? God is saying to me “Trust ME! They belong to ME…I will take care of them.”
On a recent Sunday morning, I witnessed God in action. “Why Am I AMAZED? I watched from a distance as a woman approached them, offered prayer and other support and mostly understanding as she had been through something similar. We both then spoke with them of how we can help others later on go through things we have experienced. Friends! God sent her and her willingness to help! My prayers were answered through her and others, I found out later. God had this all along and I love how he reveals this to me (when I am open to seeing) This is how I see God working in spite of me. HE’S Got This!
So are you thinking that it’s all about you, all things dependent on you? That it is hard to follow God’s leading when you are trying to lead? If we’re honest with ourselves, we all do this…each and every day!
This week is Thanksgiving, 2021. I am thankful and grateful that God has shown me today and throughout my life that HE’S Got This! Remember this verse…and comment if you like.
Trust in the Lord with all you heart and do not lean on your own understanding.”Proverbs 3:5 (ESV)
How do you see God working in your life? What are you thankful for this Thanksgiving season?